HELLO GOODBYE

I realli need to study.like REALLY.
First paper's on monday and im still plucking nails, combing my hair, staring at the pimple tt tt's reflected in the mirror, and oh, at the same time think of ways to slim tt boyd down cos somebody jus mentioned that yours truly grew fatter. But again, food forms part of me, i doubt i wanna distance myself frm tt wonderful creation.

wadeva.

but again, im reali trying hard to take in the words printed on tt $1 for 40pieces of paper, paper. geddit? okay nvm, its jus a paper. anyways. brain is malfunctioning. not tt its late. it malfunctioned at every point of time. dun ask why, i'll most prob shove sth down the throat. concentration zero. Time for new motivations.

mabbe a hamster.
No, u call that distractor.

oh, mabbe a bf.
No u call that toublemaker. hahahahah! kidddddinggg.

okay i need a place in Uni.
which means i need a GPA 3.5
which means i need As...
which means i need to focus.
which means i needto stop tinking of pointless stuff.

which goes back to the point ONE, where i was at
CONCENTRATE!

den here comes, im pretty affected and i dunnoe why. confusing at times. i cant fathom wads going on in that pea-brain head. like HALO? simplify yrself. or mabbe its jus different level of thinking.

at times lidat, i flipped to the notebook of reminders.
There states; "stubborness is also determination. its jus the power of changing "wont power" to "will power"

sounds easy. but i cant do it. dignity got me going. ego got the other. call me headstrong/stubborn, but i prefer pinciples. i guess no meant no for me. at least, this is something i can fully decide for myself.

den i spoke to mel and he said sth i guess i gotta agree.
"Girls want to hear what they WANT to hear, not what they OUGHT to hear."

i guess... i guess.

FOOEETING, EDITH