Wednesday, 3.22am
Family law jus sent to grouppie's email. she's beat. dead beat. Chinese new year eve and room is in a mess. unhair undone with pimples all over the oily face.
sweet.. so sweet.
She laid down, thinking of everything tt happened. eyes closed yet mind unshut.
Thoughts kept running and running.... like thousands of unbroken threads.
"ystd, last friday, last last saturday. last month... 2years ago."
The same old faces appeared. she sees, yet she dun remember. Funny how it twisted her ard her own fingers.
The boy, near yet far, reachable yet uncertain, love, yet hesistation. She walked in circles, reaching out for help yet faced rejections.
the closer, the higher the expectations, the greater the pain, the larger the disappointment.
Shakespeare says "love me, love me not"
She says "love him, love him......... NOT!
and stay tt way.
SNAP SNAP!
like HELLLLLLLLOO? back to reality.
concentrate eeting, concentrate. dun let the smile dazed yr soul.
