HELLO GOODBYE

Dear Diary,
I remember when i was 13.. he was the first person who dare to use peas to shoot and throw at me during lunch. He sat beside the window.. first seat all e way to the left, those lil times he'll turned around and gave me fast glance at the rate of 10times per minute. I remember he sat at the benches when i had my outdoor training in the basketball courts, looking at me, but everytime i turn around he turned away, pretending to ignore my presence.. I tot he was weird. He was short. only 155cm. I din tot he was any good. to me. i dont tink i will ever be with him.

Dear Diary,
when i was 14, he gave me flowers and teddy on valentine's day which says "BE MINE" and i remember I got together with another guy, SH, instead. He was not angry. i tink he will get over it soon? its not like we're still gonna be in contact and together 10years down the road. guys are forever lidat.

Dear Diary,
why do i miss him?

Dear Diary,
Qiling told me he's reali upset. cos he called her and cried over the phone. i was shock! cos he din say anything to me. Qiling sais he love me too much. and im hurting him like nobody's business. i tink i dun deserve him. He's too nice to me. so i told him
"dont ever come back to me one day. no matter wad i say. cos i dont deserve you."

Dear Diary,
i tink its been a year since we last chatted.. cos he dropped to normal acad and we were in different class. i still see him around the courts in school. we smile at each other sometimes. he played basketball. i tink he's cool. He grew taller and play reali well. =) his class is jus right opp my class, one level down. he alws glance up at me.. and sometimes i wave and smile back! =D hahaahah! He'll do stupid actions. i dun reali get them, but.. its funny =)

Dear Diary,
I remember when i broke up with SH, i called him first.. and he listened to my cries and sobbings and text me everyday to check on me. He told me he will be there for me. and i tot he was nice. den he called me his cinderalla and send me texts everynight. he sent me breakfast attached with a note tt says "happy meal. eat liao wont sad" and bought me chocolates/sweets/snadwich every morning and put it on my desk. =)

Dear Diary,
We got together.. i can sense his love for me. he waits for me at the play ground everyday to send me to school. he treats me reali sweet, like im a princess. but one day we quarreled cos i tot he lied to me abt his whereabouts. i couldnt contact him at all. but the next day, i found him at the play ground waiting for me with apologies. cos he sold his phone so he can buy me a adidas watch cos i lost mine! tts why i couldnt contact him at all. and he din wan me to noe he sold his phone. i cried. how could i have missed a guy like him.

Dear Diary,
Its my birthday today! sweet 16th! He sent me a text with our place, splanet (he calls it) tt said he loves me alot. and will be here with me, not only to spend this birthday. but next year's, the year after, and after and many many more years! =D i cant feel happier. I love him!

Dear Diary,
We are officially together for a year! =D and we're working together at secret recipe! =)

Dear Diary,
He broke up with me today... i dunno why.. but i really miss him. and reali want him back.. but i tink he wont. work's gonna be painful when i see him. i kept gg to the washroom cos tears kept filling up in my eyes. I wont cry, at least not when he's around.

Dear Diary,
we got back together after a month. =) wadeva wrong he had done...... it wont matter cos i believe we can overcome all this..

Dear Diary,
im suffocating. he is so demanding..... i cant do this, i cant do that. doesnt he trust me at all? Even when i speak to a guy, he wont like it. Im in Temasek Poly year 1. so many new frens i can make....... how can i stand being with such a person who doesnt give me freedom?

Dear Diary,
we broke up.. he's having his Olevel. why am i doing this to him? =(

Dear Diary,
its been 3 months since we broke up. and im attached.. he was pretty upset. sigh. did i jus did sth wrong?

Dear Diary,
its been a year or more since i met him. He changed alot. he drinks, he smokes. Looking back, its been almost 7 years since we knew each other. He still feels to same to me no matter how much he change.. its the weirdest feeling. i seem to understand him still. yet sometimes he appears unfathomable. I wonder. My heart aches when i see him smoke n drink. when i see how he tire himself out because of work. when i see how he's fingers got cut and disfigured due to the amount of alcohol he came in contact with. i feel my heart aching more when he told me he still love me... but i pushed him away and said i wan to be friends..... he backed off and stopped contacting me. seems abit too late for me to do anything. puffy eyes became my frequent visitor. and now, dear diary, i tink i miss him... alot.

Dear Diary,
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FOOEETING, EDITH