HELLO GOODBYE

If only I wasnt like a caged bird, I would have flew alot further away then where I am standing, now. And I wouldnt be who I am, perhaps better. If only.

Alright, believe it or not, HOLIDAYS ARE FUCKING BORING! im so not eggcited anymore. Its all the love Ive been waiting for yet somehow I dunno why it wasnt as great as I expected it to be. Mabbe sometimes when you finally get something, you wont really want it anymore. So many things i needa/wanna do, but time isnt on my side. Contradicting i know, but seriously. Im kinda getting sick of it.

Mabbe its a sign for me to work. like hardcore workoholic. earn many many manyyyyy big bucks and spend the rest of my life sun bathing in my self built mansion right in the middle of hawaii. NICEEEEEEEEE! yeah go on and dream, bitch. But Daddy taught me never to depend on anyone else except moi, muaself and I. For thats the only person in your entire kickass life you can be in full control of. NO ONE ELSE! Totally heads, hands, feet and everything possible up to you, Daddy. Question. Why did that fact not get drilled into yr head when u gave me 12am curfew for e past few years? Believe me, I am gonna break that lil line like a spoilt girl running away from home. if i got da maaaa-neyyy. duhh

Point is, a lil part of me feels like ditching holiday, and jus ram the whole period with work work work and more work. Else i feel like im jus wasting my holidays, burning cash into ash by bumming n slping allll day long. yeah, ditching fun for stress. sometimes even i dont understand myself. wads more you?

FOOEETING, EDITH