15 years ago, I wanted what most 5 years old kid wanted to be. A doctor. Too much pretence of doctor and patient with my brother brought me to a different level of hope. Its like, something to brag about, becoming a doctor, i can heal people. if u sick, come to me! but tt was 15years ago.
10 years ago, i dreamt of being a Teacher. Because my only source of inspiration comes from Miss Shirely Ong and Mr Daud Teo. They were my role models back then and they were the ones who gave me the dream. but when I left primary school, this dream jus fade away as I budged into my teenage life, and that was 10years ago.
So 5 years ago, I decided Law is something I wanna go into. It was made possible when I noe I did well for my O lvls and was able to get into TP's Law and Management. So I did. But I graduated with a shit GPA of 2.75 and realised, shucks. im stuck. I cant go into University, so what am I gonna do?
Applied for ACCA, thought this should make out something for myself. But I know Im taking ACCA for the sake of future, and not interest. So, enrolled but wanted to quit for SIM, go into events, marketing. And then came all the stress and objections. abt me not knowing what i want, abt me not able to decide. abt me being too playful and no strive for life. Thats when i realise. perhaps those words are what I do not want to hear, but they are right. I am so indecisive, everybody knows that. I spend like one hour just to decide what i want to eat. no joke. but, it has came to a point that I failed to stay firm in making decision tt concerns my future. that sucks big time.
I guess the only 1 thing i noe clearly, is that I want to secure a future for myself without the need to depend on my partner nor my family to support me. It might be the only satisfaction I might find in myself in the midst of all the confusion. mabbe i had made my choice. Money over interest. moreover, my interest isnt REALLLLLY my interest. unless u give me a free pass to NUS to do Law. Gladly. Give me back the 3 years in Poly. I wont be slacking it away to grad w a 2.75. geez.
this post is gonna end lidat. im still deciding on what I want. but remind me. I dun wan to be just another ordinary degree holder in Singapore. cause tt usually equals to nothing.
goodnight world.
